What is your first reaction when you wake up in the morning? Is it, “Good morning God!” or is it “Good God… it’s morning…five more minutes!” Either way it’s morning…what matters I suppose is our attitude towards a new day!
But there are many times when we wake up in the morning and all of our cares and trials just zoom into our head like a racecar and we are not sure what to do with them, or where to put them. A priest once said that we need to jump out of bed…(or roll out!) get on our knees right away, and give our day to God totally and completely! That means we are giving to Him all our thoughts, words, actions struggles, anxieties, joys, virtues, everything…even our sins. Yes. God wants our sins too. He wants us to look at Him with humble hearts and admit that we “fell in the mud” again! It is easy for us to get discouraged and to really be hard on ourselves for the mistakes of the past.
This time of COVID has been a trial for many people. It is forcing us to slow down and look in ourselves and see that our true worth, value and purpose is not in what we do here…it is who we are. We are children of God…and God loves us. The lockdown procedures of COVID are also forcing us to really examine our lives, and that can be a cause of joy, but also a cause for anxiety and stress. We might look at the past and question: “why did I waste so much time worrying about little things?” “Why did I treat this person that way?” “Why didn’t I just tell the truth?” “Why have I taken so much for granted?”…”and the big question… “Have I truly forgiven myself and others for the mistakes of the past?”
Forgiveness… It is a reality that describes the very heart of God. How many times in the Gospels have we heard it said: “Your sins are forgiven you.” Remember the words of Jesus on the Cross: “Father, forgive them. They know not what they do.” Forgiveness is at the core of love. You know you love when you can honestly say to another person, or even to look in the mirror and say, “I forgive you!” Forgiveness is not an emotion…it is not a warm and fuzzy feeling we have for ourselves or another person. Forgiveness, just like love, lies in the will. We must choose to forgive…even if we still feel angry and hurt…we must choose to forgive. Why? We only need to look at a crucifix and see the answer…our Lord forgives me, I must also forgive and love.
When you have love for someone, sometimes it is hard to show it because it means that you are taking a risk. We are worried about getting hurt… That is understandable. When we have been hurt, we want to close in on ourselves and put a guard over our hearts. Yes, we do that to be safe. The wounds go deep, but I have learned that one of the greatest ways to show love is through forgiveness. Wounds go deep, but the merciful waters of forgiveness can cleanse that hurt and begin to heal the wound.
One day, I found the Litany of Forgiveness. I hope that praying this Litany will help bring healing in your lives, especially during this pandemic time. We will resume our study of the Dark Night of the Soul next week. God Bless you and stay strong during this pandemic!!!
Litany of Forgiveness
By: William Rabior, 2001
Excerpted from Prayers for Later Years
Scrupulous Anonymous Vol 56. #2, February 2019. Viewed this website on January 20th, 2021.
For the times I lacked compassion and concern for
others—forgive me, Lord.
For my failures to pray and take the time to talk to
you—forgive me, Lord.
For not sharing my resources: my time, talent, and
treasure—forgive me, Lord.
For holding grudges and refusing to have a forgiving
heart—forgive me, Lord.
For the times I have criticized and gossiped—forgive
For not caring for myself physically, emotionally, and
spiritually—forgive me, Lord.
For the ways I misused nature and damaged the
environment—forgive me, Lord.
For my prejudices, biases, and deliberate acts of
discrimination—forgive me, Lord.
For the misuse and abuse of the wonderful gift of
sexuality—forgive me, Lord.
For failing to see your face in the homeless and the
helpless—forgive me, Lord.
For believing I could save myself—forgive me, Lord.
For not living fully for you—forgive me, Lord.
For my lack of faith, hope, and love—forgive me, Lord.
For doubting that you can and will forgive me
unconditionally—forgive me, Lord.
For doubting that you love me with an everlasting
love—forgive me, Lord.
Source: Excerpted from Prayers for Later Years by William Rabior (807596). Copyright © 2001, William Rabior. To order, visit Liguori.org or call 800-325-9521
© 2019 Liguori Publications. All rights reserved. Policy on copying or distributing: Individuals may download, print, copy, and/or share issues of Scrupulous Anonymous provided 1) you don’t remove this copying/distributing policy and 2) you don’t seek or accept payment for the copies. Nonprofit organizations may quote SA in publications offered at no cost as long as you identify Scrupulous Anonymous as the source and include the issue number or date and the publisher (Liguori Publications, ScrupulousAnonymous.org). For commercial or other purposes, no part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any means—electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or any other—except for brief quotations in printed reviews, without the prior written permission of Liguori Publications. Liguori Publications, a nonprofit corporation, is an apostolate of the Redemptorists (Redemptorists.com).