Sr. Marie Therese
C. S. Lewis, one of my favorite Christian authors once said, “God cannot give us peace and happiness apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing.” His words resonate greatly with my own vocation story, because it is by ‘the hard way’ that I learned this truth.
I was blessed to come from a very loving and close-knit family. My parents were the ones from whom I first learned about God. They taught me my prayers, and were a wonderful example of Christian charity in their deeds and words. We attended Mass as a family on Sunday, and they did their best to raise me Catholic. However, this did not protect me from the relativism that is so rampant in our society, and which I adopted as my personal creed by the time I was in highschool. Consequently, I began to question the Catholic Faith, and developed my own moral code, often in opposition Catholic morality.
I believed that happiness would come from fulfilling my own will. Hence, I set off for university with the dream of one day becoming a veterinarian, making lots of money, and eventually marrying. In my selfish way I life I found a great paradox—doing my own will did not bring any peace or happiness. As my life began spiralling into despair, I was suddenly struck by grace from God, the grace to recognize my sinfulness. He showed me in an instant that I was choosing life apart from Him forever; and that my actions were hurting me and those around me. I soon was reconciled to God through the Sacrament of Penance, and I began to grow closer to Him through Jesus’ Sacrament of love, the Holy Eucharist.
As my relationship with Christ flourished, the question of His will for my life presented itself. I prayed fervently (and often impatiently) to know my vocation. After months of prayer, there was a distinct moment where God spoke to my heart and said, “I want you be a religious.” This new revelation was met with great fear! Religious life was for saints, which excluded me. However, I was unable to evade ‘the call’ for very long, and decided to settle things by visiting a religious community. My aim, as I arrived at the convent, was to prove to God that I did not have a vocation. After that initial visit, I learned of the beauty of religious life. I soon met the Sisters of Our Lady Immaculate and I fell in love with the community, primarily because of their Eucharistic and Marian spirituality, fidelity to the Holy Father, and their charism of offering their lives for the re-evangelisation of Canada.
I professed Temporary Vows of chastity, poverty, and obedience, on August 15, 2012, the happiest day of my life. Although my life has not turned out according to my plans, I do not regret a single moment of God’s will. I have found the peace and happiness that only God can give.